Sahabat,
Dikala ku bersedih, kau hadir disisi
Meniup semangat mengingatkan itu tarbiyah Ilahi
Dikala ku gembira, kau jua mengingatkan
"Jangan lihat kemanisan selepas pengorbanan sebagai satu kemenangan"
"Kerana ia mungkin satu ujian"...
Wahai sahabat,
Apakah hati ini ikhlas
Perasaan yang mendiam dalam diri
Mengasihi sepenuh hati
Haraplah benar segalanya kerana Ilahi
Maafkan andai ada kesilapan
Yang mungkin hasil dari bisikan syaitan
Mahupun dari segala kekurangan
Terkadang ianya di luar kawalan
Wahai Tuhan kami,
Izinkan kami bertemu lagi
Di jannahMu yang indah nan abadi
Jangan tinggalkan walau salah satu dari kami di sini...
that morning i woke up in fear
in fear of my dreadful dream
not a dream of a murder
nor a dream of a horrible ghost flying after me
but a dream of my past
the past that i never want it to happen again
never want to be reminded about
the past i wished i could delete from my box of memory
the dream was so disturbing
it's like haunting me from inside
i felt like crying my heart out
ashamed of the past i had lived
the sin i had committed
ashamed to myself and my God
i felt a bit depressed
wondering if this was just the effect of winter
or the pressure of the coming exams
i was thinking of sharing it with someone
but never ready for it
but an invaluable friend of mine come to me
saying that how much Allah loves me
that He gaves me such a dream
for me to get closer to Him
that we have to live with our past
because it helps us to appreciate the present
the words soothed me and made me realize the absolute love of Allah
so in my prayer i genuinely ask God
for His forgiveness over my sins
to not make me astray
to not make me turn away after He has given me light
from the darkness i had fallen before
and i ask Allah to strengthen the bond of love between us
the love in faiqah family
and in our big family
the love in the cause of Allah
to keep us stay stick in this path of truth
because i could not really tell them
of how much i love them all
how much i love this family
how much they make me strong
how much they mean to me
through thick and thin,
joy and sadness
we've been together
searching for the light of truth
reminding each other,
competing in improving ourselves
that never in my life i feel this unique bond of love
the love in the cause of Allah
the feeling that we have each other
in this foreign land
because words really fail me....
in fear of my dreadful dream
not a dream of a murder
nor a dream of a horrible ghost flying after me
but a dream of my past
the past that i never want it to happen again
never want to be reminded about
the past i wished i could delete from my box of memory
the dream was so disturbing
it's like haunting me from inside
i felt like crying my heart out
ashamed of the past i had lived
the sin i had committed
ashamed to myself and my God
i felt a bit depressed
wondering if this was just the effect of winter
or the pressure of the coming exams
i was thinking of sharing it with someone
but never ready for it
but an invaluable friend of mine come to me
saying that how much Allah loves me
that He gaves me such a dream
for me to get closer to Him
that we have to live with our past
because it helps us to appreciate the present
the words soothed me and made me realize the absolute love of Allah
so in my prayer i genuinely ask God
for His forgiveness over my sins
to not make me astray
to not make me turn away after He has given me light
from the darkness i had fallen before
and i ask Allah to strengthen the bond of love between us
the love in faiqah family
and in our big family
the love in the cause of Allah
to keep us stay stick in this path of truth
because i could not really tell them
of how much i love them all
how much i love this family
how much they make me strong
how much they mean to me
through thick and thin,
joy and sadness
we've been together
searching for the light of truth
reminding each other,
competing in improving ourselves
that never in my life i feel this unique bond of love
the love in the cause of Allah
the feeling that we have each other
in this foreign land
because words really fail me....
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Ya Allah, Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berkumpul kerana mengasihiMu, bertemu untuk mematuhi (perintah)Mu, bersatu memikul beban dakwahMu, hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syari'atMu, maka eratkanlah ya Allah akan ikatannya. Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini. Tunjuklah kepada hati-hati ini akan jalanNya (yang sebenar). Penuhkanlah (piala) hati ini dengan cahaya Rabbani Mu yang tidak kunjung malap. Lapangkanlah hati-hati ini dengan limpahan iman/keyakinan dan keindahan tawakkal kepadaMu. Hidup suburkan hati-hati ini dengan ma'rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentangMu...(Jika Engkau mentaqdirkan mati) maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agamaMu. Engkaulah sebaik-baik Sandaran dan sebaik-baik Penolong.
Ya Allah, Perkenankanlah permintaan ini.
~andai suatu hari nanti kita ditakdirkan berpisah, jika kita tidak dapat berjumpa lagi di bumi Allah ini, moga kita berjumpa lagi di syurgaNya nanti....insyaAllah..;)
(hijrah menuju Allah - devotees)
bulat niat tekad mu
dlm hijrah mu itu
Allah nantikan bersama
tempuh jalan yg diredhai
andai rasa diri lemah
di perjalanan hijrah mu
sendirian tiada mampu
mohonlah pada tuhanmu
hijrah ini memang susah
hijrah ini memang payah
hijrah ini menuju Allah
dihujungnya hasanah
hijrah mu menuju Allah
ia sunnah para nabi
para solihin dan mutakhir
kembara hati menuju ilahi
Oh Tuhan...
Sayangnya Kau padaku
Menghantar ku ke tempat asing
Menjauhkan aku dari kegelapan
Menyinari aku dgn sebuah kehidupan
Setelah sekian lama aku dipaling
Biar pernah aku mengeluh
Dengan takdir yg Engkau tetapkan
Sungguh itulah yang tebaik untukku
Sungguh Engkau Maha Mengetahui
Oh Tuhan...
Sangat banyak yang telah Kau berikan padaku
Tetapi terlalu sedikit aku bersyukur
Pernah aku sujud menangisi dosaku
Kemudian aku terlupa lalu mengulanginya kembali
Oh Tuhan, sungguh aku tak layak utk syurgaMu…
Namun berilah keampunan kepadaku
Aku lemah tanpa bimbinganMu
Ampunilah aku, Tuhan…
Jangan palingkan aku lagi dari hidayahMu
Sayangnya Kau padaku
Menghantar ku ke tempat asing
Menjauhkan aku dari kegelapan
Menyinari aku dgn sebuah kehidupan
Setelah sekian lama aku dipaling
Biar pernah aku mengeluh
Dengan takdir yg Engkau tetapkan
Sungguh itulah yang tebaik untukku
Sungguh Engkau Maha Mengetahui
Oh Tuhan...
Sangat banyak yang telah Kau berikan padaku
Tetapi terlalu sedikit aku bersyukur
Pernah aku sujud menangisi dosaku
Kemudian aku terlupa lalu mengulanginya kembali
Oh Tuhan, sungguh aku tak layak utk syurgaMu…
Namun berilah keampunan kepadaku
Aku lemah tanpa bimbinganMu
Ampunilah aku, Tuhan…
Jangan palingkan aku lagi dari hidayahMu
...kerana taqwa itu di hati